My Quest to Find My Waist

Too many times I only come to blog when I am depressed or upset about something, but I need to learn to celebrate the victories as well as ask for commiseration during the trying times.  I went to see a nutritionist approx two weeks ago, and if my scale is to be believed, I have lost about 10 lbs in the last 2-3 weeks.  I was gaining at a rapid clip before because I got depressed because I couldn’t break the 30lb mark or even keep it.  I kept gaining and losing the same 5-7 lbs.  It was so frustrating.  I know that losing this much weight this fast will not last.  My body hasn’t had time to adjust to the new caloric intake, but it will and the loss will slow, but it will continue.  I don’t think that I have ever approached a weigh in with such anticipation–even though it will take place at about 4:30 pm, and fully clothed, instead of in the morning, naked, after I have used the potty.

I have even started back to doing aerobics.  I had stopped back in May when I fell on my knee.  Between the gym, salsa and now aerobics, I am feeling the knee a lot more.  I am thinking of going to see a doctor, b/c I just don’t think this burning sensation is cool, but it doesn’t slow me down.  It may just be a residual of having injured this same knee 3 times in 3 years.

Yesterday, I jogged up 2 flights of stairs with my class.  I was breathing heavy when I was done but there were no dark spots dancing in front of my eyes, and I didn’t have to sit down.  I can remember a time when I would have refused to walk up A flight of stairs, much less jog up 2. What I really can’t wair for is to have normal size thighs.  My thighs remind me ham hocks.  I would say I hate them, but the other day, I wrote about how much I love them because they help me with my salsa spins, so I’ll just say I can’t wait until they are smaller and more toned.  I also can’t wait to be able to wrap them around someone without worrying that I’ll squeeze him to death like a human python.  Sex is so awkward at this size. (At least, I think so…maybe sex is awkward when you’re a healthy weight, too.)  Anyway, that’s all for today.  Peace, people.