My Quest to Find My Waist

So, about a month ago I made it to 258.  Then I went up to 259.  Then back up to 264.  Then back to 259.  Today, I about 259.5.  I am making a pledge where all can see (who read the blogs, anyway) that I am going to do my level best to hit 257 by Friday the 19th.  No more ice cream, no more fast food, no more meal skipping.  I will eat fruit and veggies, I WILL drink water and I will exercise as much as I can.  I don’t know what I’ll do today, but tomorrow I am going walking in the morning and dancing in the evening.  I WILL DO THIS!

I went to a party this weekend with some casual acquaintances I have made on the local salsa circuit.  This morning, I realized that not one of the women made me feel welcome at the party except for the one who invited me and the one who owned the condo.  I mostly hung out with the guys, and that, believe me was no hardship, but come on! These women are many different ages and it was like being back in high school again.  You know those teen movies where the new girl goes to the party and all the popular girls look at her like  “What is She doing here?”  Now, I am not saying they all looked at me like that, but no one really spoke to me, until later on, after copious amounts of alcohol had been consumed.  One woman and I had a conversation, but we had never met before.  At the party I was having a lot of fun dancing and talking with the guys, and I did purposely put myself to the task of being more outgoing and not pulling my usual wallflower, “I’m so sorry I’m so fat” schtick and hanging by myself pretending to have a good time.  Maybe I only was outgoing with the men?  Maybe they all want boyfriends and think I am adding myself to the hunt.  Maybe they think fat girls shouldn’t salsa.  I don’t know and I wish I didn’t care, but I am one of those people that wants everyone to like me, even though I don’t like everyone. =+)